Blind as Day

The Bell Jar - Sylvia Plath

2009-12-27T06:48:12Z

"I lay in that tub on the seventeenth floor of this hotel for women-only, high up over the jazz and push of New York, for near onto an hour, and I felt myself growing pure again. I don't believe in baptism or the waters of Jordan or anything like that, bu tI guess I feel about a hot bath the way those religious people feel about holy water."

"I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because i couldn't make up my mind which of the figs i would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and , one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet."

That's one of the reasons I never wanted to get married. The last thing I wanted was infinite security and to be the place an arrow shoots off from. I wanted change and excitement and to shoot off in all directions myself, like the colored arrows from a Fourth of July rocket."

"Neurotic, ha!" I let out a scornful laugh. "If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days."
Buddy put his hand on mind.
"Let me fly with you."

"The more hopeless you were, the further away they hid you."

"If Mrs. Guinea had given me a ticket to Europe, or a round-the-world cruise, it wouldn't have made on scrap of difference to me, because wherever i sat = on the deck of a shop or at a street cafe in Paris or Bangkok - I would be sitting under the same glass bell jar, stewing in my own sour air."

The day after Christmas is always painfully dull

2009-12-26T05:37:40Z

Hope everyone had a merry Christmas.

Here's a brief rundown of what I got:
-Half a dozen Books
-Two Aprons
-Tons of Cooking stuff
-A strand of Pearls and three pairs of earrings
-Ornaments
-Movies
-that Wii Resort game (my arm hurts from doing archery all night)
-Movies
-How I Met Your Mother S4
-a total of $75 in gift cards to barnes and noble and $50 to target, plus other money
-a cookie jar
-A 2 sweaters, dress, light coat, and a pair of shoes

It was a good Christmas. Hope you all had a pleasant day and stayed dry,

letter4no1 @ 2009-12-25T01:40:00

2009-12-25T06:40:48Z

MERRY CHRISTMAS LJ LAND

And It's nappie time in the 2nd

2009-12-24T05:25:07Z

i've had a dull but pleasent day of sleeping in, watching the food network and watching the wings. I love break.

Also, I got a B in Doc and Soc, which is impressive when you concider i didn't do three assignments and blatantly ignored the teacher most of the time.

December Reading 3/2

2009-12-23T00:24:46Z

The Great Gatsby
f Scott Fitzgerald

Nick Carraway, originally from Minnesota has spent quite a bit of time on the east coast. After fighting in World War Two and going to Yale he decides to spend a year in New York. He winds up living in a bungalow near his second cousin once removed, Daisy and her husband Tom, a man he went to Yale with. He also lives next to door the mysterious Jay Gatsby, who is throwing elaborate parties ever weekend. Tom is the witness to a summer's worth of drama in Long Island with secrets, old loves and huge tempers.

When I picked up The Great Gatsby for the first time four days ago I didn't really know what to excpet. Recentlly many people had told me I would enjoy it, but never gave me a reason why. When I got the book as an early Christmas gift a few days ago I was more interested in what was the big deal with this 'classic' then with the story or the characters but that quickly changed. There is something very simple and beautiful in the way Fitzgerald made these characters. They're all so tragically flawed, but you feel for most of them at one time or another. Gatsby is intriguing, it's hard to tell when he is being honest, but that doesn't really matter, it's just who he is. it's a short book, but it moves quick. It's refershing to see the 1920's in a way that doesn't focus on the family, World War One (well, more than it does) and music. A great read.

Story:
***
Structure:
****

My Top Ten Songs of 2009

2009-12-22T04:35:24Z

10. I'm on a Boat - Lonely Island

9.Some Surprise - Gary Lightbody and Lisa Hannigan

8.Four Winds - Bright Eyes
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XaV-nGQ5yqw
7.Telescope Eyes - Eisley

6.Florescent Adolescence - Arctic Monkeys

5.Signs - Bloc Party
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=liZ6ScudE9E
4.Paparazzi - Lady Gaga

3.Dance Anthem of the 80's -Regina Spektor

2.I Don't Knnow - Lisa Hannigan

1.I Knew Prufrock Before He was Famous - Frank Turner

Close Contendors:
You will. You? Will. You? Will. You? Will - Live Snow Patrol Cover
Once We Were Anarchistic - Frank Turner
Waking Up at 3 - Frank Hamiliton
Tears Dry on Their Down - Amy Winehouse
Hometown Glory - Adele
Fuck You - Lily allen

Wikipedia ate up half my evening

2009-12-21T06:20:50Z

Alright, so I haven't really talked to anyone since i've been home, and that's cool since i've only been home a day and spent that day with my family visting my grandma and doing Christmas things.

I'm deabting if I am going to go on a self impossed internet vacation/ vacation from everyone until after Christmas or not.

It's time to watch another season of the amazing race. GO

2009-12-20T06:53:47Z

I'm home and really enjoying doing nothing but watching movies, drinking tea, reading magazines and the knowledge that I don't have to wake up before noon tomorrow.

December Reading 2/2

2009-12-19T07:17:36Z

Up In the Air
Walter Kirn

Backflap:
Ryan Bingham's job as a Career Transition Counselor - he fires people - has kept him airborne for years. Although he despises his line of work, he has come to love the culture of what he calls "Airworld," finding contentment within pressurized cabins and anonymous hotel rooms. With a letter of resignation sitting on his boss's desk, and the hope of a job with a mysterious firm, Bingham is agonizingly close to his ultimate goal, his Holy Grail: ONE MILLION FREQUENT FLYER MILES.

Review:
Up in the Air isn't the gem that I was hoping it would be, but that being said it was still a quick, enjoyable read. Ryan is a fairly average character that even a light reader would recognize. He doesn't form lasting attachments, reminisces about his childhood and has odd qualities that makes the reader relate to him and think he is a bit odd all at once. The real momentum behind Up in the Air is the Airworld Ryan lives in. It is vibrant and something that I have rarely seen explored in fiction. Even Ryan's job is interesting, and watching him read people is fun and engrossing. However, about 3/4 of the way through the book everything slows to a glacially pace and the ending leaves a lot to be desired but overall a decent read. Looking forward to seeing the film.

Story:
**1/2
Structure:
***1/3

Does your bedroom have a window? What time do you shower? - John Krasinski

2009-12-18T05:27:51Z

I'm so so sick of hearing about avatar, this doesn't mean i won't see it, just that i'm tired of the world talking about it. so if you know me, have seen avatar and want to squee about it to me shut the fuck up before i shut you up? k? k.

I'm done with this semester! Today was pretty stressful and my film isn't completely finished, but my partner is finishing it Saturday so I am done and super happy and ready for break and baked goods and good books.

Amanda sent Sarah and I our presents in the mail (the package was addressed to Sarah and Other Sarah) She got me the Great Gatsby because I talked about wanting to read it like once a few months ago. I've gotta say the most stressful part of Christmas is finding thoughtful, cool gifts. Even for Secret Santa it is stressful.

John Krasinski is on Conan. this is good.

If you do nothing good things, or doughnuts, will come to you!

2009-12-17T01:42:43Z

Sarah
I think when we all get back from break i'm making doughnuts
Amanda
doughnuts!? awesome!
did you ever make it to dunkin to fill that craving you had for like 2 weeks?
Sarah
Ha! great story...
in short no
Amanda
hahah do tell
Sarah
but yesterday i was watching super size me for extra credit and thinking that fast food sounded amazing (keep in mind this is midnight)
and talking to one of my good friends back home about this need for dunkin donuts that has been going on for like forever
and he was all like if you don't get a doughnut before i see you i'll buy you one to shut you up
Amanda
i think that's the exact opposite reaction you're supposed to have when watching super size me
Sarah
and i was like SCORE
Amanda
haha niiiice
Sarah
it really is, but i wasn't happy to be watching it
Amanda
haha love it
Sarah
so this morning i go to producing 1 and we were aloud to bring in food for everyone, but it was early and i hate a majority of the people in that class
but right after class starts one of the girls in it walks in with huge box filled with amazing doughnuts
and i was happy
oh so very happyAmanda
awesoem!
Sarah
and i had a doughnut!
Amanda
awesome
Sarah
that may have been the lamest story ever told
Amanda
hhaaa well i'm glad that was finally taken care of
no, no, i'm sure my brother could top it
ha, jk
...sorta
Sarah
haha

123

2009-12-16T06:45:59Z

LAST HELLISH WEDNESDAY GO!

Arcade Fire night

2009-12-15T06:32:55Z

This weeks sucks. It doesn't feel right calling it finals week as i have no real finals, but oh well.

Starting the 21st I want to do a 10 best of 10 things from 2009, So far I've got TV, Movies, Music, Books, and Obsessions of 2009, but I need five more. So if you're reading this please give me ideas.

Lost in space

2009-12-14T07:06:58Z

I'm really bored but everything I do isn't keeping my attention. Maybe I'll try to watch peep show, or continue Robin Hood. I really just want to be at home. It's to close to the end of the semester for me to be happy with my usual habits, everything changes around the holidays. You don't follow your usual class schedule, you don't see the same old people. I haven't had Starbucks in a while, I could really use a London fog, or my favorite frapachino.

I'm not really tired, i really want to be tired. I couldn't sleep last night until around five. I want to be tired and be asleep before three and do things tomorrow that can be looked at as productive. However this is all very unlikely.

New Moon

2009-12-13T07:31:54Z

Srsly, WORST MOVIE EVER

December Reading 1/2

2009-12-12T07:37:02Z

The Other Queen
Philippa Gregory

Summary:
In the last novel of Gregory's Tudor series we follow Mary Stuart (Mary Queen of Scots) as she is captured by the English and left with George and Bess Talbot, a newly married high noble couple. We follow them from castle to castle, running from possible raids and war, and under Queen Elizabeth's advisors Cecil constant watch. The reader follows Mary on her quest for freedom, George's inner turmoil over serving one Queen while loving another and Bess's worries over status and finances.

Review:
I guess you could call me a loyal Gregory reader. I've read the majority of her Tudor series and have read the first book in Plantagenet trilogy. Usually I can find more than a few faults with her novels, but the story is usually enough to overlook large historical inaccuracies and underdeveloped characters. Unfortunately every character in this novel is grating. Mary is pompous, vain, and irritating as she repeats the same choirs of "you must free me, you can't kill me, aren't i pretty". Bess is the stereotypic nagging wife, who can not go a section without worrying about her land, and talking about the money that is being lost, and all the while George is gripping with his love for Mary, while serving Elizabeth and making stupid choices the entire time. Between the three of them there is not one redeemable quality, and that is really the tragedy of this story, not the massive number of executions, the religious persecutions or the historical inaccuracy's. Not one of Gregory's best works.

Story:
**1/2
Structure:
***

Frankie Boyle!

2009-12-11T07:53:53Z

Well, I'm in the final stretch. I've got a self assessment, a revision of a treatment, some Doc and Soc extra credit that i really should do and my final film due before next Wednesday with no in class finals to take. So that isn't to bad.

With such little work to do this gives me about five days of nothing to do in the city. unfortunately it's really cold and I've got very little money. So i will mostly be reading and re watching robin hood. which is also pleasant. I'm kind of looking forward to going home. I'm kind of done with the city for now. December in the city is nicer when you have a car, or loved ones around. So see ya'll in like 10 days?

It's supposed to be in the 20's tomorrow! Hurray!

I'm going to go watch Buzzcocks and Qi.

Alright, so it is cold outside.

2009-12-10T06:06:58Z

My second to last hellish Wednesday. It went alright. I'm very tired and not looking forward to editing tomorrow. As of five minutes ago I am a week away from being done with this semester. I'm really looking forward to being done and coming home. I'm not sure what I'm going to do over break yet, but i'm sure i can find something to keep me busy.

Of course the best way to spend an evening is watching Glee, Top Chef and then Robin Hood in cozy pajamas with tea and cookies.

Ok, everyone chill the fuck out, it's only snow

2009-12-09T06:43:52Z

I know I should really worry, but given that I have two presentations tomorrow I am totally freaking out. It's not that I don't know my material, but my producing teacher is kind of intimidating, and this is in lue of a final exam. Oh well, Hopefully I don't have to present this week and can go next. There is so much I have due tomorrow that just not having to do one thing could make my day great.
We started editing today. Our footage isn't the greatest, but it is mostly all usable.Some shots are horrible out of focus and the guy I'm working with still wants to use them in our film. We can't really seem to agree on anything. I'm going to hand over the reigns on Thursday and he's going to work with effects and color correction, so hopefully things will look decent after that. Our major problem is going to be audio. I couldn't get a Nagra to record until next Tuesday. Which means I'll have to leave him solely in charge of the audio and final cut because I have class all day Wednesday and it's due on Thursday.

i'm just going to stop worrying about it. I'm 8 days away from the end of my semester and I'm so looking forward to coming home.

It's snowing!

2009-12-08T07:32:20Z

I have to go in to edit tomorrow and I really don't want to. However I am running out of time, so I might as well get this personal hell over with as quickly as possible.
I spent so much time doing homework today and got so little done. I finished my CRM final and started my Doc and Soc treatment, called the p2 lab and didn't do much else. It really wasn't that much over the course of a day, but I couldn't concentrait on anything. Today was seriously very slow.
Gossip Girl was very intense, I made Oatmeal Rasion Cookies and

I'm not looking forward to the cold weather and snow, but i am looking forward to all the scarves and hats i'll get to wear now!

Harry Potter MANIA

2009-12-07T04:39:53Z

I've gotten so little done this entire weekend. I'm watching Goblet of fire now.

"My eyes are not glistening with the ghosts of my past!"

I love that part. Oh Harry Potter, you're so amazing.

i should be working on my paper, but i have a substantial amount done.

"The bird bites"

I guess I don't have to much to say. Still excited for Christmas, still ready to be done with this hellish semester, always ready for a nap.

night, all

this is all

2009-12-06T08:05:48Z

SNL sucked tonight

and

I painted my nails

Oh, Mr Darcy!

2009-12-05T07:12:55Z

I'd have ever intention of doing much more today. I wanted to get my whole Producing Binder done, but I still have to finish my Critical Assumptions, My character Bios, Call Sheets, Concept Art and Synopsis. Most of these just need minor tweaking but it's still quiet a bit to get done. At least I know it will be done by tomorrow, and I will hopefully get more of my CRM paper done. Thanks to all who answered my Media Questions, BTW,

So, you must all be wondering if there isn't much more for me to do for this project, and If i did so little of it today, what I must have done. Well here's my answer. Bravo Cooking shows. Bravo Cooking shows from 2 till 7. It was a very bad choice, that was followed by more bad choices of making elaborate dinners and rewatching some Big Bang Theory and a DVRed Iron Chef.

I also watched Young Victoria and am Finishing the Keira Knightly Pride and Prejudice as I type this. Here's to a more productive tomorrow! Hope all your finals and projects and homework are going well!

oh, goodie.

2009-12-04T06:29:49Z

I've reached the point in the semester where I have ridicules nightmares of failing all my classes. They get more creative each semester. Way to go, Brain. This on involved me burning film, accidentally dropping production 2 and running around some mr. Rodgeresk area like I was jason bourne.

I plan on getting much more done tomorrow than I have gotten today.

Here's what I still have due:
Final Film
CRM Final Paper
CRM Self Assesment
Treatment
Flyer
Production Binder
Pitch

gahhh

I don't remember having my hand up - ARK

2009-12-03T05:20:39Z

15 days till the end of my semester. Gah. I pitched Elf for an exercise in my producing class. It went surprisingly well. Today was actually an ok day. I need to email my producing teacher now. Tomorrow I've got to go grocery shopping at target and jewel and got to cvs. Oh, and i want to start my CRM paper and go to the gym. Also, New Office. Thursday will be a good day. You'll notice i didn't say class, as i don't have class tomorrow

night all